I once rejected someone because I liked them too much and got scared.

They were everything I wanted — and that was the problem.

They looked at me with a softness I wasn’t used to. They listened with attention that felt too pure. They liked me without pressure, without games, without trying to impress me.
And for the first time in a long time… I felt seen.

It terrified me.

Because people like that have power. Not the toxic kind. The vulnerable kind. The kind that can break you without trying.
The kind you fall for without permission.

So I ran.
I told them I wasn’t ready.
I told them I wanted to focus on myself.
I told them half-truths wrapped in excuses.

They nodded, smiled sadly, and said they understood.
But they didn’t understand that pushing them away hurt me too.

It’s crazy how we reject the things we crave the most.
It’s crazy how fear disguises itself as logic.
And now, every time I meet someone new, I compare them to the person I walked away from.

The one who could’ve ruined me with love.
The one I’m still thinking about.

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